Monday, May 31, 2010

Memorial Day

remembrance_profile_photoToday is Memorial Day. It is a day to remember those who have given all that they had for our country. Most of the people who read my blog know that I am a big fan of our military men and women. I adopt soldiers who will be deployed and I am a member of several military charities as well.

So, on this day of remembrance I am remembering those who have given all they possibly could for me and my freedom. There is supposed to be a National moment of silence today at 3 pm. I will definitely be participating in this. One year I will make it to Arlington for this day. It is a goal.

So, what I am asking is that no matter what you are doing today at 3pm, please take a moment to remember these brave heroes. Enjoy your parties, BBQs and get together, but please remember what this day is about. Thank you.



Saturday, May 29, 2010

Side Table Trouble

So since we have gotten the new love seat that reclines we both have been loving it. One major problem, well for me anyway. When we had the old couch, I sat a certain way and it was great for using my lap top without a table. Now, because I can not really turn sideways, I have difficulty using my lap top especially when I am writing papers for school.

At one point we had a coffee table in front of the old couch, but then we got a Wii and we moved it totally out of the way and started to use TV tables because it was easier to move them than the coffee table when ever we wanted to play Wii. Now the coffee table does not work because the love seat reclines and there is no room for it. So I moved my TV table on my side of the love seat, so that I have some place to set my lap top when I am not using it ( which is very little!) and it has worked well, but I thought that we had an extra TV table upstairs that I could bring down to use as a desk when I am doing school work, but apparently we don’t.

So, I have an idea but not 100% sure that it will work. I am going to try it out after I finish writing this. The problem is that I have to take all the stuff off of my TV table and the other thing I am going to try and use then move them both in to place. If it works I will take a picture to show you what it looks like. Personally, I want to buy something that will work, but unless this idea doesn’t pan out I am thinking that Doug will not go for that. LOL. Okay, enough of my putting it off.. Be back later. Ciao!


UPDATE: The other thing that I thought might work did not, it was too big… ::sigh:: Now to think of something else. Maybe use Doug’s TV table for now…

Friday, May 28, 2010

Being Southern In the North

Please don’t take me wrong there are many things that I LOVE about Michigan. These are just some of my observations since I have been here and I have never actually talked about this before.

When I moved here almost five years ago ( October will be 5 years) it was severe culture shock to me. I was actually born in Ohio, but had lived in Florida since I was four. Now, I know that some people will say that Florida is not the South, but it is. There are a lot of transplants there, but since I lived there all my life with the exception of six months in Tennessee, I lived there until now. When I first got here, sweet tea was only found in like three places and they all had BBQ.

So many things here that were not there and vice versa. Although in the last couple of years, Mc Donald's and Wendy’s have started to sell sweet tea. Now Mickie D’s sweet tea is really good! Sonic is now up here and there are Cracker Barrels up here. It was hard when I first got here because people ( by people I mean Doug’s sister) called me a hick.

Maybe I was. I am still as Southern as I can be, but it is hard sometimes because here in Michigan there are places that are country, which I love. The city is difficult for me because of the closeness and all the concrete. I have a hard time with where I live because the houses are so close together and it is like people are on top of me.

When I let a ya’ all fly people look at me like I have two heads! It has gotten somewhat easier, but sometimes I feel like I am losing my Southernism sometimes. Like it is slowly slipping away and one day it will be gone. I really hope not! It is who I am and who I have been. Being Southern in the North is not an easy thing. But like I said there are many things I love about Michigan. I have found quite a few places that I love here. Well, I am going to run.. Ciao!



Thursday, May 27, 2010

Thankful Thursday

Hello and welcome to this week’s Thankful Thursday! I normally do this because it is good to be thankful for what you have. It also helps me stay positive! I hope that you will join me in Thankful Thursday by leaving your thankful in a comment or doing a post as well.

  1. I am thankful that sometimes I can be a blessing to others in their lives. Sometimes a nice word or a reach out gives someone the hope to continue on.
  2. I am thankful that God is working in my life everyday to help me become a better person.
  3. I am thankful for FX putting the show Justified on TV with Timothy Olyphant. He is just hot!!!
  4. I am thankful that I am healthy and able to do the things that I want to do.
  5. I am thankful for Joyce Meyer, without her I would be one lost Christian. Thanks Joyce!!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Wednesday Wishes

Hello and welcome to another edition of Wednesday Wishes. I started this as a way to be more positive in my life. I hope that you will join in with me and leave your Wednesday Wishes in the comments or even do a whole post about them as well. Here we go…

  1. I wish that some people would honestly think about what they say before they actually say it.
  2. I wish that sometimes John ( my ex) would be a little less insecure and more understanding.
  3. I wish my kids a wonderful summer full of great adventures and fun.
  4. I wish that I was not addicted to Facebook so much. LOL
  5. I wish that all my friends and readers have a wonderful day and it is full of good things for you.


Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Difficult Already

I did not sleep much yesterday so as a result of that, I was out like a light before 9pm. In the chair. Again. I am just glad that we picked the comfy reclining love seat. So this morning I get up and I have to fill out a form for school. So I use the desk top because I have to print the form to fill it out then scan it and send it back. The desk top is the only computer connected to the printer until I can get a wireless printer.

Normally this is not a big deal. I also did my project that was due and commented to two people for the discussion question. For my new readers, I go to school online and on the best days it is wonderful and I love it, but those few days that are not best days are a challenge to say the least. The very least.

The computer in there has been giving Doug fits lately and if you read my blog for very long, you will know I am tech support in this house. He yells at the computer like that will help anything. ::sigh:: So this morning I get up and remember that I did not fix the connection last night before I fell asleep. ( it is a long story, but when we got ATT U-Verse the guy set it up for connection to the private network in our house. Somehow it is also connecting to a second public network when the computer is started after shutting down.) So when that happens I have to fix it. No big deal, what I should do is call ATT tech support and have them tell me how to stop that totally, but I am too lazy.

So, I go into the computer room and I open the menu for fixing it and it is fine, but the red X is still there. So I open Mozilla. On that computer I use Mozilla and he uses IE. It is working so he probably just restarted it and did not shut it totally down. I do my project and print the form I need, fill it out scan it back into the computer then I have major issues. Not great for like 3am. I spent about an hour and I finally think that I got them fixed as well as got his Yahoo toolbar back.

On IE, you can have multiple tool bars and when we only had one computer, I had a few different ones on Mozilla, well some of them would download for IE too. No big deal, he just ignored them normally. If you look really close on IE 8 there are X’s by the tool bars, I think he got rid of the Yahoo one on accident by clicking on the X. He swears up and down that he did not do that but it just disappeared. Okay. It disappeared. Whatever.

So, I got that back and now he will have to set up the tool bar later. Oh who am I kidding, I will have to do it later. But for now it is all good. My lap top is running fine thank you very much!! I am not going to dwell on this less than stellar start to my day, it has to get better, right?!?!?! RIGHT?!?!?!? Ciao!


Monday, May 24, 2010


Yesterday I suffered a major migraine all day. Ugh. The day started out with so much promise and went down hill from there. This morning I am feeling better I did my discussion question for class this morning. Later I will work on the project.

You know what they say about the best laid plans, right? It seems that happens to me when I make plans. Oh well, not going to really dwell on it much. I should know better. LOL.

This morning I had about 6 emails from my ex yesterday. Ugh. He gets kind of upset if I don’t answer quickly. So this morning I read them all and sent him an email explaining that I was not online a lot yesterday because I had a migraine.

He understands because I have had them while we were together and he has actually seen them come on. Normally he is cool when I tell him I had a headache like that. I was so out of it, I fell asleep in my recliner. Doug woke me up at like 9:30pm. I actually thought that I had gotten up and went to bed, but I had not. Oops. I went to bed and went right back to sleep.

Although I woke up and I thought I might have been living in Alaska in the winter time. Doug turned the AC on the other day because it was humid and like 80. Apparently he turned it on and set it to freakin cold! I do have to remember that it is 10-15 degrees cooler in the basement where I am, but still. I have a t shirt, sweat shirt, sweat pants, and wool socks on right now! I would not be surprised if it snowed in here. Okay maybe that is a bit much but you get what I mean. I need to go because I have some other stuff to do. Ciao!


Sunday, May 23, 2010

Hello Sunday

I noticed by my dashboard that I have picked up a few new readers, so I wanted to take the time to say hello and welcome! Make yourself comfortable, my blog is your blog. Thank you for finding me interesting enough to follow.

So, hopefully today will be spent doing some school work because honestly I have been kind of slacking this week. I normally do not slack, so I am not going to beat myself up about it. I need to get back on track though. In my own defense yesterday was spent feeling horrible.

I love to listen to music on my Yahoo messenger because they have so many free stations to listen to of many genres. This morning I am listening to 80’s pop. It is the music of my youth and I love it. Yesterday morning I was listening to the Smooth Jazz station and I love that one too. So many to choose from!

I have been spending time running tune up programs on my computer this morning. I suddenly realized that I have been neglecting that and it needed to be done ASAP because the Internet is not a safe place and I have been kind of not keeping up with the maintenance. So far everything is all good, I am hoping it stays that way and I will have to schedule time on my calendar to do these things weekly.

It was humid yesterday here in Michigan so we turned the air on. In the basement where I live it is a good 10-15 degrees cooler than upstairs, not a big deal, I wear sweats and I have my blanket on the couch. I am hardly ever cold because of this. So, I am going to go now. Ciao!


Saturday, May 22, 2010

More Saturday Fun

We did end up going to the Motor City Buffet, honestly we should not have though. We both were not feeling the greatest but we pushed our selves to go and of course one of us got sick ( not me). The food is always good, but we should have stayed home. Oh well, live and learn I guess.

I did get some (5 hours) sleep. I have a small headache and I am hoping that it will be gone once I eat something. I am having Chinese, not sure if that is really smart but it sounded good and the one thing on the buffet that had nothing that I was interested in.

Did not get to the school work but will get it done tomorrow. I am watching Star Wars, you know the original because today is the 30th anniversary of it’s release I think. Yeah, I hate the fact that it is called IV: New Hope. Bite me, it is Star Wars to me. One of my very favorite series, although I am not fond of Episodes 1 and 2. Three is okay, it actually answers a lot of questions about Vader, but my favorite is the original three.

Not a bad way to spend a Saturday night in my book. Ciao!


Saturday, Hopefully Some Sleep

This will be many things in one entry, so I am sorry if it is all over the place. I use a free program from Microsoft to write my entries for my blog(s). I love Live Writer because it really gives me control over what kind of font I want to use above what Blogger gives me to use, without messing with HTML code. Cause face it, HTML is all Greek to me.

This morning I was up after only two hours of sleep. Ick. I am not sure why but I will roll with it. Doug wants to go to the Motor City today for the lunch buffet and that sounds good to me. If I can stay awake long enough that is.

Today I am going to hopefully sleep and get some school work done. Last night’s seminar, we talked about Menopause. Yes you read right. I was less than thrilled with the topic honestly. Ugh. Okay, I am going to go for now. Ciao!


Friday, May 21, 2010

More About the Letter

I spoke about a letter that I had written to my mother. That letter was about four years in the making. I had tried to write that letter on and off since I got to Michigan and never could. For some reason, okay because it was not God’s will for me to write that letter until now.

As much as my mother has hurt me through out my life and I am not going to go into detail here, I finally came to the conclusion that it is finally time to forgive and let it all go. So, that is what that letter was about to my mom. As much as I once hated her, now I feel bad for her because her life is filled with bitterness and anger for what others have done to her.

I mentioned that in the letter to and I also told her that I understood now that she was the best mom she could be. I do understand that now. It took me a while to figure that out. Moms and dads are not perfect and God knows I am not perfect, I never claim to be. Neither is my mom and I have forgiven her for that.

After I wrote this letter, such a giant weight was lifted from me. I felt so good and so content. So, I know that this was the right thing to do. This letter is sitting in an envelope already addressed and ready to be mailed. What my mom does with that letter is now on her. I have my ideas what will happen when she gets it and honestly, I do not see her being at all happy with me about this. God told me to write this letter and I obeyed. The rest is up to her.

So, that is where I left it. With her. I am working on forgiving people in my life that have hurt me and letting that anger and hurt go. Life is too short to carry this around with me from here on out. So, I am not going to. Simple as that.

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Thursday, May 20, 2010

Thankful Thursday and Some Other Stuff

Well, today you get kind of a two – for – one deal with me. You get my Thankful Thursday entry and a second entry all in one today! First is the Thankful Thursday…

  1. I am thankful for God being in my life and working in me to become a better person.
  2. I am thankful to my oldest friend ( Aaron) who still loves me and still chooses to like me even at my worst and he has seen the worst, let me tell you! So, Thank you Aaron.
  3. I am thankful for my life even though sometimes I do not like what I am dealing with, I am thankful that I am able to deal with it.
  4. I am thankful that I am not hurt or sick. I am able to use my brain and still do many of the things that I love to do.
  5. I am thankful that I am able to forgive.

Okay, on to the second part of this entry. Yesterday morning I was watching Joyce Meyer and God told me to write a letter to my mother. My mother, who I have not spoken to in almost 5 years. So, I did. I basically wrote that I wanted to explain to her the reasons that I left.

More specifically the reasons that had to do with her, on why I left. I do understand that she will most likely not take it in the way it was written. I was not mean and I did not accuse, I just basically told her that I left because she was a very bitter person and that I could not be around that anymore because it was starting to affect me. I do understand that what she thinks and what she does with this letter is on her. I wrote it not in hate or to get back at her, but to point out to her that if she does not change it, it will affect my children and will hurt her more than it has already.

I honestly feel as though a weight has been lifted from my life after I wrote this. I am working on forgiving myself and people that I had perceived had hurt me. So, if you are one of those people expect an email sometime soon. I think that I got the one person who falls into that category already that reads this blog. It is not an easy thing to do and I am working on forgiving myself as well. That seems to be the hardest thing of all.

Okay, well, I am going to go. Ciao!


Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Wednesday’s Wishes

Well, will wonders never cease? I actually remembered this week!! Yay me!

  1. I wish that I could write my mom a letter explaining why I left, or at least her part in me leaving.
  2. I wish the weather would stabilize here and I would have less migraines.
  3. I wish that I could sleep normally
  4. I wish I could go on a cruise right now..
  5. I wish I had a dog.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Tuesday, Ugh.

Okay, so maybe Tuesday is not all that bad. Of course I did not write my paper yesterday. So, I have started it this morning, okay I have 678 words out of 750, so not too bad. I am taking a break and will most likely finish it later.

I am enjoying my MP3 player this morning. I have not really listened to it in a while and I had to add some music that I got lately to it anyway, so while I was writing my paper I was listening to it. I used to listen to it when I went to sleep, but I was having trouble sleeping because I wanted to listen to the music and not sleep. LOL. So, I quit listening to it so I could sleep. Go figure.

Tonight is dinner at Country Boy like usual. I am looking forward to that. My life used to be so exciting, not usually in the good way, but now my life is so BORING and it is driving me crazy. Is there not something in between? When my life was totally out of control I would wish for a boring life and now that I have it, I want some excitement. I am not sure if this is a case of ‘the grass is greener on the other side of the fence’ or not.

Some days I am missing a lot of things, others not so much. I do miss certain people a lot though. They have been through a lot with me and know me better than anyone. You know who you are. Thanks for sticking with me and loving me even though there have been times I did not deserve it. Ciao!


Monday, May 17, 2010


This weekend was a very blah weekend for me. We really did not do anything, it was nice weather wise, but I had a migraine for like three days so I was pretty much out of commission all weekend. Not a bad thing really though.

I am still trying to get to the bottom of the Mother’s Day fiasco. Not having any luck so far. Mainly because I have to kind of tip toe around what I want to know.

I have a paper to do today, not a big deal it is on earthquakes and is only 750 words, I can do that in my sleep practically. I am going to go now. Ciao!!


Friday, May 14, 2010

It Being Friday and All

This week has been up and down for me and honestly I am kind of sick  of the ride. I just want things to be okay. I am not asking for every week to be amazing, because I know that is not how it works. You have to have bad to balance out the good. Life is about balance and it seems that I have tilted again. ::sigh:: I am trying to stay positive about it, although the weather and the migraines are not helping me lately.

It is spring time in Michigan and it is like this every year, although it seems worse this year for some reason. My asthma is controlled again and that is helping a lot. No coughing and living on Nyquil and cough drops anymore. That in itself is good news. I am really tired lately and I am not sure why.

So, I have been allowing myself some extra time to sleep. I think it is because of all the rain and nasty weather here. Of course the headaches do not help with this either. They are terrible with the pain and nausea. Of course with that comes sensitivity to light and sound as well as temperature. Luckily it has been rather cool here, so that helps and with the dark skies no bright light, which helps too.

I have finally figured out why my hands were shaking so badly. The Symbicort has two medicines in it to help control the asthma. If I suddenly stop taking the medication, it makes me shake. So, another reason to continue to take it. Well, that and it keeps my lungs functioning in a good way.

I got some stuff from Lush, which is a Canadian company and their stuff is awesome! It is bath stuff, like soap and shampoo. Check out their site, everything is handmade and some of it is vegan. Made from natural stuff, as much as possible. I came across them when we went to Canada a couple of years back.

Well, I think that this is all for me. Ciao!Kiss

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Thankful Thursday

There are many things that I am grateful for. I can of course never think of them all when I am doing this post.

  1. I am thankful for my kids, even though they hurt my feelings sometimes.
  2. I am thankful that my true friends online and off know me and allow me to be a part of their lives.
  3. I am thankful for my cat Dinky. She loves me no matter what and forces me to stay grounded sometimes.
  4. I am thankful that I am able to sleep 99% of the time now with no nightmares.
  5. I am thankful for the diversion that Facebook offers me on a daily basis.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Wednesday’s Wishes

I totally blanked last week on Wednesday. So, this week I will try to make up for it. LOL.

  1. I wish that my kids would understand that when they don’t call on mother’s day it hurts my feelings
  2. I wish that it did not matter that my kids did not call on mother’s day.
  3. I wish that when my kids have children of their own, that they do not have to have their feelings hurt by their children.
  4. I wish good health for all of my friends who are not feeling well today.
  5. I wish that I could soothe all the hurts of people who I care about.

These are all I can think of for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a Thankful Thursday entry, if I remember. Ciao!


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Blogger’s Delight

I am still kind of bummed about my kids not wishing me a happy mother’s day. I was hoping that maybe their card was late, but no. No card. Sigh.

I know that I should not be this upset but I am. I will get over it and move on. It just hurts me. I just kind of feel like John sometimes messes with me. He tells me that the kids say one thing and then when I ask them about what he said, they tell me that they did not say that.

School is going well. I am happy there. Very happy. With the information I found out about traveling and going on a cruise, I am so very happy. I can go on an Alaskan cruise and even if it goes to Canada, I am okay even though I don’t have a passport. Yay! Well, I gotta go. Ciao!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day is usually a bitter sweet day for me and this one is no exception. Doug took me to brunch at O’Mara’s and it was so good! The food was amazing including the beef tips. He also got me a card and is getting me dinner.

It has been a nice quiet day and I have enjoyed it, but here is the bitter part. I have not heard from my kids all day. No phone call, no card, no email, nothing. Now I know that they know it is Mother’s Day because I am sure that they got the Grandmothers’ something. At least a card.

I am thinking that this is John’s doing, but if I ask he will say that the kids chose to not call, etc. If I ask the kids they will blame John, so it is a no win situation because if I confront John he will possibly cut me off from them. But I suffer if I don’t say anything.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there. Have a great day.

Friday, May 7, 2010

MIA For A Couple of Days

I did not start out to be not blogging for two days, it sort of happened that way.  I always try to make an entry everyday and for the last couple of days, well, I wish I had a really good reason why, but I don’t. Not really. I have been still recovering and my body has been telling me to sleep, so I have been sleeping a lot.

School is going well and I am still liking it a lot. I have not been feeling really great the last few days and I am not having any symptoms, so I am not headed back to the doctor just yet. Hopefully it will pass soon. The Symbicort is working well for me and I am glad that my doctor put me on it. My asthma was way out of control and it really was like trying to breathe through a straw. Not a great thing.

I wanted to do an entry this morning before I got busy with school stuff or I fell asleep. I will try to not stay away for so long next time. Ciao!


Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Tuesday, the End of My Week

So, with the new school comes a new week. Nothing unusual there really. Today ( Tuesday) is the end of my week at school. Tomorrow ( Wednesday) starts my week all over again.

I have a confession to make…. I am totally in love with Michael Buble. I caught a couple of interviews with him on various shows and he is very funny and has an amazing sense of humor. He really does not take himself all that seriously. I know some of you are rolling your eyes at me, but he is rather cute too.

I actually really like his music too. He reminds me of Sinatra. Who I totally love. I know what you are thinking and yes, I know. I am fascinated by the younger Sinatra and the times he lived. The Vegas back then was awesome and I am sorry I missed that Vegas. The Vegas of my day (right now) seems so gaudy and like it is trying to hard.

I am not sure how to explain it. I miss the Lauderdale ( Florida) of the 60’s too. There are still tiny peeks of it around, but back then it was the most happening place. Just like Vegas back then. I am not sure if it is the simpler times I am missing or what.

Miami Beach too actually. Now a days I would not go into Miami with out a armed escort and a armored car. It is that bad. I guess that is the price we pay for progress. I do not know. I miss those places when they were cool.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Plans and Being Late.

Okay, I know I am late today with an entry. Not really my fault. My body is still recovering from not getting a lot of sleep when I had the horrible cough. So, I am sleeping a lot lately.

We are in the middle of making plans to go to Indiana in June. We are going to Amish country and most likely spending the night. We are going with his dad and The Sister. Hopefully it will be okay. She has been okay lately but I never know with her until she starts talking.

School is going well and so far I have an A. Yeah, I celebrate the little victories like getting perfect points on my first discussion question. Celebrating the small victories leads to bigger victories. Yay me!!

Well, I am going to go, I am starving!! Ciao!


Sunday, May 2, 2010

Sunday Restful Sunday

So, yesterday we went to a few places to get the shower head and I had to put some money in the bank. I usually do not go out on the weekends unless we go to dinner or something. I now know why that is! I went to Panera Bread yesterday with Doug for lunch. It was so good!

I made BBQ pork yesterday and we needed to go get buns, so we added this stop to our list. Home Depot was a mad house! So busy! We got a showerhead, I am waiting for Doug to install it so we can make sure that it works for him.

Dinner was really good last night. I made homemade BBQ pork and we had mac and cheese as well. We had originally gotten buns to have sandwiches, but we ended up having the pork without the buns.  I am tired today, still recovering from being so sick for so long.

I am still working on my project for class, I am hoping I can get it done today. Maybe later, I just got up. Doug also asked me to help him pick up the larger sticks in the yard today. Hoping it will rain. LOL. Ciao!


Saturday, May 1, 2010

Saturday Update

Last night’s seminar was really interesting and a lot better than the week before. Which is good for me, because while science is not my subject of choice, if it is interesting it is better. This week everyone was actually paying attention and there was very little repeating, which is even better for me!

I tend to forget that not everyone is like me, in the fact that I do pay attention and I try to follow directions. I am very into my school and I get a bit upset when others interrupt that for me. The first seminar people were asking the same exact questions and not paying attention, which made it tedious for me.

Today I have to go to Home Depot to look at shower heads for the shower here in the basement. The Sister gave us a shower head for our bathroom and because I am shorter than Doug, it works wonderfully for me, but it does not adjust so it does not work well for him. No big deal.

My breathing is 100% better than last week at this time, which I am grateful for. When it gets closer to me running out of my Symbicort, I have to call the doctor because she will give me several more samples so that I don’t have to spend a ton of money on it, which is great! I am also going to get another rescue inhaler to put in the car. I have one here, but sometimes I forget to put it in my pocket in case. If there is one in the car, then it would be better.

I am sleeping so much better since the meds have worked and the inhalers have kicked in. I am so glad for that too. It is hard to concentrate when you are tired all the time.

This weekend will be spent working on my project due for my science class and finishing my discussion question, which I should do soon, but I just got up so I am trying to wake up so when I write my answer, it will be easy to understand. So, I will do that later. Maybe after Home Depot and I eat.

We are going to go to Panera Bread. One of my favorite places here. I love this place. I always get the same thing, a half of a Panini and a salad. Well, it used to be soup, until I tried the salads. They are awesome!! I am looking forward to that for sure today.

I am going to run for now. Ciao!