Right Now I Wanna Scream

In the last few days I have been dealing with something that I honestly was not going to even mention here. Although it is over as of yesterday and this will be the last mention of it, I need to get my feelings out of my head so I can let go of it for once and for all.

A friend of mine from the bad old days in Florida, had been in my life for a while and we had been talking and stuff. We had a big fight  before my birthday and that pissed me off because this person (I think) did it on purpose. After my birthday, we talked and I decided to try and let him back into my life again.

He began by telling me he loved me and missed me. He wanted to be with me. All of this while I am living with another man. He was telling me I was the only one who he was talking to . He wanted to be in my life and yadda yadda. Saying all these pretty things to me. However, knowing him like I do, I did not buy any of this.

Come to find out (yesterday) that he is thinking about moving back to Florida. Something he has told me over and over again that he would never do. Various reasons why. So when he said this to me, I was surprised. I asked why. Apparently while he was telling me I was the only one, there was another girl too. Mind you, he hurt me because I thought we were friends enough to not lie to each other. I thought we had passed that a long time ago.

Apparently I was wrong about that. What hurts the most are the lies. He told me he was living in Texas when he is living in another state. He told me he did not have a cell phone when he did. When we first started talking, he told me he was single and he was not. So, this is on me because with his past, I should have seen this coming. Live and learn.

He lied to me about things he did not need to lie about and when confronted about them, he would have all kinds of excuses ready. So, I threw him out of my life yesterday. He called me 15 time or so after I hung up on him (it might have been childish to hang up on him, but I did not feel that I needed to talk to him anymore). He left me voicemails that I deleted without listening to. I unfriended him on Facebook and I erased my call log on my phone as well as took him out of my phone.

I honestly do not need so called friends like that in my life. Oh and for the record, I told him that I was staying here and I was happy for the most part where I am. I am hurt by the loss of a friendship, which apparently only meant something to me and not to him. If it mattered to him at all he would not have lied to me repeatedly.