Monday Oh Monday

Over the weekend, I found out that a friend of mine, A will be moving to California. Not just willy nilly moving as it were, but to accept an amazing opportunity and I am really happy for him. I know that I did not seem like it when I spoke to him, but I was honestly and truly caught off guard. I will miss A a lot and I know that it will be amazing and challenging.

Also over the weekend, I also realized some things about myself that were not particularly flattering. I won’t go into them here because I am never sure who exactly reads this. I am okay with what I realized and I have to make some changes here soon.

I have been catching up on my DVR’d shows so I could make room for more episodes.  Well, I am gonna run. Ciao!

Feeling Better

While I know that today is only Saturday, it was a rough week for me. Although it is ending better than it started admittedly. I am doing better, thank you to all of you who have taken the time to leave comments on here and Facebook. Especially those who have taken the time to email or even call me. I appreciate it more than I can express. Times like this, you really do find out who your friends are.

Okay, so where to begin… Today is a day for me to kind of catch up with stuff. In the middle if the thing with Julie’s mom, I was enrolled in an orientation class for my new school and since it was a do it at your own pace thing, I kinda just blew it off for the week. Now, I did call and explain to my academic person and she was all kinds of cool with it, as long as I get it done. So, I am going to look at that today and start. Not that I am anticipating any kinds of issues with it.

I have learned a very important lesson in all of this last week or so and that is that I have to make time for the important people in my life because you never know what tomorrow will bring. Sadly, that was hammered home to me and I realized that I had not been doing that as of late. So, I am going to try to make that the first thing I do everyday. I know that some days I will fail and that is okay. I am also learning to forgive myself as well.

I have learned that I can only do what I can do, but to at least try. So, I am trying. I miss mom #2 a lot. I know she is watching over me and that feels good. There are certain things that will make me tear up and cry still, but I am getting better at not crying so much. Moving on sucks, but I know it is essential. Moving on doesn’t mean that I will miss her any less or that my heart still is not hurting. Because it is and I will always miss her. I can’t not live my life and I know she would not want that.

So, getting better everyday. Love you Julie and you are on my mind constantly. So is your dad.

Trying To Get Back To Normal

This week has been trying for me, I know it is only Wednesday but when you think about how the week began you can see my point here. I have been thinking about Julie’s mom since Monday when she died and I miss her terribly. I know she would not want me to sit around and cry for her all the time, but honestly it is so hard to get moving on.

I spoke with Julie on Monday for a bit and it was nice to talk to her. We talked about her mom mostly and how much we both miss her and some of the things I remember about her and the good she did in my life. I could give you so many examples of that, but since this is a public blog, I really don’t want to out myself on some things here. But trust me, she was there for me when I really needed someone.

I know she is in heaven watching over all of us who loved her. I know she is not in any more pain and I am grateful for that. I am trying to get things together to move on with life, because as so many people have told me lately, life is for the living. I know this in my head. My heart is breaking and I know that I will be able to move on soon. Right now I am trying to grieve for this woman who was like my mom.

I miss you Cindy and I love you much. I know you are watching over me and I am thankful for that as well as for you being in my life when I needed you most.

Julie’s Mom

This morning Julie’s mom died. She is no longer in pain and that is good. I miss her. Please send prayers.

An Update

Julie’s mom has been moved to hospice care and is in good hands. I appreciate everyone who has left comments here and on Facebook for her and her family, as well as for all of us, her friends. I count myself lucky because I have a great many memories of Julie’s mom and I cherish them all. Especially those in which she was there for me in ways that my mom was not. I will miss her greatly but I know she will live on in my heart and in my memories.

As with anyone who is going to die, I don’t want her to go, but I sure don’t want her to suffer either. I feel selfish sometimes because I don’t want her to die. Because I am not ready for this. I know Julie and her family is not ready to let her mom go, but I also know that God has a plan. It is difficult for me to accept that right now. I love Julie’s mom with all my heart and I will miss her greatly. I will update as I know more. Thanks again for all the support and prayers. I will need some in the coming days I think.

48 Hours

48 hours. 2 days. 2880 minutes. 172,800 seconds. Not enough time to say good bye. Not enough time to say what I want to say. Not enough time to do anything. Today my best friend’s mom was given 48 hours to live. I can’t help but to think about all the times I have had with this woman. She is like my mom. I love her. I am devastated that I can not be there with her. If anyone out there is of the praying sort, please pray for her. And for me. I am not sure if I can get through this. I am not ready for this. I am not sure when I will be here posting again.

Dinner With A Perfect Stranger- An Invitation Worth Considering

When I read the blurb for this book, I was really interested in it. It seemed like an interesting concept to base a book upon. The concept is this, Nick Cominsky is invited to have dinner with a man who says he is Jesus. How many of us have always wanted to sit down with Jesus and ask him questions? I know that I have. So this book caught my attention before I could even open it and read the first word on the first page.

The whole book takes place from the moment that Nick receives the invitation to when Nick returns home to his family. It mainly focuses on the dinner between the two men. During this dinner, Nick asks some really good questions and is quite skeptical at first. I mean who would really believe that they are dining with Jesus?

I think that this book is a good read for the Christian in your life and the non Christian as well. It is a wonderful story told simply and without the distractions of other sub stories weaved in, you can really concentrate on what is going on in the story. David Gregory has written a wonderfully inspirational book. This book is relatively short and easy to read. Once I got into the story, I read the whole book in less than a day.

You can find other reviews, a study guide, and more information about the author and book here.

I found that I really enjoyed this book and I think that lots of other people will as well. It is a wonderful book.

I got this book for free for the express purpose of this review from WalterBrook Multnomah

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Dinner with a Perfect Stranger by David Gregory (Chapter 1 Excerpt)